I'll use this space here as a place to give you all an update on where my life is at.
I came back from camp a changed man. A lot of things happened in the summer, some of which shattered my false expectation of life. Thus, coming back was actually a renewing opportunity. Because my false expectations were shattered, I no longer became upset when life didn't go my way. I no longer felt entitled to the life I expected God to give me, and that, my friends, is freeing.
The school year started off very strong, and it continues to go that way. Once you stop caring so much about what YOU want in life, your heart is freed up to anticipate what God will throw at you. That has been my mindset for the past month, and it's been so great, God is gracious to a slow-learning man like me.
However, remnants of the past still remain. Remnants of those dreams still remain. Whenever I am reminded of them, I dread them. There's still an element of the unknown when you fully put your faith in God. Where is He going to take you? Will it be painful? Will I be alone forever (this is my biggest fear)? And when I took a look at that memory drawer (see comic), all of the things that I so looked forward to and dreamed about so much in the past came flooding back. I realized that I had to give them up for good and fully surrender to God. And if you're a human being like me, you'll know that's HARD.
So anyways, I had my emotional episode by myself in my basement and wrote this comic. This comic is an accurate representation of my thought process. I hope my honesty and authenticity will be encouraging and comforting to you.
P.S: all of my emotional comics are the most aesthetically pleasing (IMO), lol.
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