Note: These are old comics. Looking back, it seems a little silly to have suffered so much for whatever I went through. Yet the suffering is real, it was just me who was very very weak.
Part 1 commentary (from February 21st, 2021):
"Not the proudest thing I’ve ever shared with you guys, but I have to. I’ve always presented myself as the guy who has it all together and the guy who’s got his walk with the Lord figured out. I’m not that guy, I struggle daily, and my weakness has been exposed these past few months. If you remember a comic I did last year, I shared my vulnerability and the difficulties I was going through. This time I’m sharing something from that same experience, but now in hindsight, and with a broader perspective. My aim is not your sympathy, my aim is to warn you to not head down the same road as I have. Your hope should NEVER be built on ANYTHING that is not God. If you find yourself clinging to something so hard that you don’t know what you would do without it, that’s a huge red flag, separate yourself from that thing as soon as possible. Sure, it’s gonna hurt, but think about it this way: separating yourself from an idol is like removing an arm that is severely infected. It hurts, it hurts a lot, but if you let it stay long enough, it’ll ruin your entire body. Jesus said it’s better for you to enter into heaven with something missing from your body than to enter hell with all your body parts. All the things that are built on the foundation of Jesus will be tested. If the things you build your foundations with are fragile, they won’t last. And you will be hurt. Build your house on the sand (hear God’s word but do not obey) and you WILL feel the consequences. I’m gonna come out and say that I am an absolute fool, a stupid man who has only survived thus far because God has been so gracious to me. If you have already built your fragile selfish foundations too tall, it will crumble, God will destroy that foundation. When that happens, don’t get mad at God. You might not understand what He is doing in your emotions but He will rather give you immense pain to save you than to let you wander to your doom walking on rose petals... God kicked me off my unstable foundations before it was too late. It hurt so much and I suffered for so long, but I am thankful for it. I know God has a good plan for me, even if that plan hurts I will always trust in him.
It wasn’t easy, I cry out (like, literally cry) to the Lord if I have to, sometimes that happens multiple times a day, but just remember, always cry to the Lord, always go to Him. He is the only one you can depend on. Don’t give up on Him and He WILL give you a new heart, and one day you will lack nothing! Stay tuned for the next episode to see how God saved me from the darkness."
Part 2 commentary (from February 28th, 2021):
"Now, for those of you who know me, you might say this after reading this comic “wow, was it really THAT bad?”. The truth is, yeah, it really was. That just goes to show how dangerous my idols were and how weak in the spirit I was. Sometimes those things need to be exposed through pain.
I’ve basically said everything in the comic. I will just add this last thought: throughout this whole process, though it was painful and though I totally lost it so many times, I never stopped crying out to God. You know that is really the best thing you can do. The Bible tells us that God is near to the broken-hearted and that He gives grace to the humble. And the best way to show humility before aged during trials is to cry out to Him for help instead of depending on your own strength!
Can it be hard to cry out to Him? Oh yeah, especially when the flesh is in the way. Our sinful desires and the devil do NOT want us to turn to God for help. But I assure you, don’t listen to them. That isn’t to say that you should not seek help from family friends or professionals, but always seek God’s help first and foremost, and He might just point you towards one of those things to help you out. A really powerful Psalm helped me through this time: Psalm 34. Here’s a verse that just sums it all up: “This poor man cried out, and the LORD heard him And saved him out of all his troubles.” Psalms 34:6. I always need to remind myself: I am the poor man, and God will save me.
Okay, that’s what I had to say. I thank you for being with me over these few months. Thank you to those to pray for me, those who encouraged me, and those who stuck by my side even when I was at my worst. You guys are godsends. If any one of you needs some fellowship during your trials, I am always here, just shoot me a dm and I will be with you!"
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